My Land is...somewhere out There

you're the only one i want...which part of it you din't understand?:'(

i just want you to be the one...i just want us meant to be...:'(

hatiku.untukmu.selalu.

di sisimu.selaluku ada.

sweetheart,

i miss you...

i love you...

:)

En.HoneY.

i've been thinking...

distance is killing...time is...running???

*sigh~* distance, she is so far away from me...5096 miles away from me...what should i do so that i could keep our distance is close???

time...5 years...5 years of waiting...

5 years...i wish...it worth to wait...

do you ever fall in love?if you dont,you wouldn't understand this feelings of a human being...

feelings that drive you crazy...

feelings that make you totally in insanity...

feelings that romance you...

feelings that made you comfort with someone...

feelings that made you feel you found half of yourself...

found your other pair of heart...


i love her...i miss her...like crazy...

friend>love>???

what would happen???we all wish for happy ending...such a subjective,how's the ending you wnt to be??

marriage...

who ever think of that???

life after marriage...much more happier than now...it would be such...truly...its the happiest,safest,prospered life you will have...

who will guarantee it????

you...

"i want to hear u...huhu!!!"

that was the msg i received from her when she's in the flight, waiting to depart to Abu Dhabi...

i called her...though,i just cnt hear her voice,it'll make me cries...i know i will...

that call would be the last call,last conversation,before she going back to Egypt.EGYPT!!!i wish she could stay...:'(

"han,syg nk off da nie..."
i silence...i know...that u all know wht happned to me...i cried...

"han???"
i duno what to say,im crying...i dunt know what to say to her...
i try to resist,and speak...

"ye...syg..."
"love you..."
"love you too..."

we hang up...i couldnt bear the tears...they just flow down...slowly by my face...
"she's leaving....yes,she's leaving..." i talked to myself...

before that,i sent a voice message to her...i hope she would listen to it before she's going for her sleep in the night...

i couldnt life without you,syg...

even when u're away from me,i found its too difficult for me...
now,you just too far from me...thousands miles away from me...:'(

i really need you...

when i woke up,i just wish that my phone will have msg from you..."goodmorning,honey..."

now,it seems to be hard to get tht...

in the night,"gudnyte,love...:-*"

as well difficult...

we are far,yet...our time wouldn't be the same...u're 6hours away from me...:'(

you're so far,dear...:'(

i need you by my side...always...and forever...:'(

i love you,always and forever...:'(

syg...han mne ad tidk mluangkn mse utk syg ble han cbuk dgn keje...i reli am...

instead,han nk syg tman...han an prnah gtaw syg...:'(

no matter how busy i am,i always will search the tiniest time for you...han rnh gtaw nie an?syg jgn la lupe...

jgn la ckp han asyk cbuk dgn tu...dgn nie...:'(

han nk syg tman han,sokong han,brde di sisi han...spnjng mse...:'(

han blik lwat,sbb pngajar lps lwat...wht cn i do?:'(

han taw syg tgh tggu han...han pn xnk syg tggu lme2...:'(

han nk blik cpt2...dgn smbutn syg...:'(

han mntk maaf...

tp,an laksanakn jnji han sprti mne han jnji,

han akn cari mse utk syg wlaupn han cbuk mcne pn...

spnjng bngkel tu,han ad cari syg...an? wlaupn syg kte han cbuk ngn bngkel tu,tp,han ad cari syg,msg....:'(

nape ckp han xd mse utk syg?:'(

han tgh bersedih sebenarnya,syg, waktu han call...

han xtaw sedih pe...han terfikir2 pe syg ckp kt han mlm tu...

sgt2 sakit bila difikirkan...sgt2...mmbuatkn han rse,"bek ak mati je la..."

han jd trauma,syg...trauma sume bnd2 x bek utk kte,akn berlaku lg..

trauma yg syg akn btol2 tnggalkan han,sdngkn syg berjnji pd han...

han trfikir ap akn trjadi ble syg btol2 buat sedemikian,















han x snggup mmikirkan sume tu...han xnk sume tu berlaku...han perlukan syg di sisi han...slalu......



han prlukan syg...
ble han mrah,han nk syg redakn mrah han dgn cnta syg trhdap han...
ble han merase trtekan,han hrapkan syg utk redakn han dgn ksih syg syg kpd han...
ble han sdeyh,han hrapkan belaian syg kpd han...
x kire la ble han mrah,han trtekan,han sdeyh...dan wlaupape pn yg x bgus brlaku pd han,n han hilang kawalan...

percaya la,syg...waktu itu,syg je la yg han amat perlukn utk perbaikkan perasaan han...bkn utk dijadi mngse,bkn utk dimarahi,tp utk disayangi...han nk syg pujuk han dgn ksih syg,cnta syg kpd han...

han telefon,utk mntk maaf kt syg,sedalam2 nyr...sejujurnya...han mntk maaf sgt2...han xbergune,han x layak dlm hdup syg...tp,han hnya dpt berusaha utk mndpt kelayakan itu di diri syg...

stiap detik,han berusaha utk pulihkan hubungn kte,utk wat syg gmbre,snyum...

:'(

im deeply apology,dear...

i just couldn't talk in the phone,i scared that u will be get mad more to me...:'(

i really sorry,dear...i never ever in my life,every moment with your love,never ever mean to hurt you...

because i just too love you very much...

this is especially for you,my love,syg...

sesungguhnya bila ku melukai hatimu,percaya la,
ku sedang menusuk panah berbisa kala di hatiku,

sesungguhnya bila kau mengampuni ku,percaya la,
ku berusaha dengan sebetol-betolnya utk tidak mengulangi nya lagi,

sesungguhnya bila kau ingin pergi jauh dari sisiku, percaya la,
ku merasakan jasadku tanpa seurat roh di dada,

sesungguhnya bila kau pergi utk selamanya,percaya la,
ku xkn dpt hidup lagi mulai saat itu,

sesungguhnya bila kita bersatu,percaya la,
kita bersatu sebetol-betolnya,

sesungguhnya, sygku,ku tahu segala isi hatimu,percaya la,
aku dan kamu,tidak inginkan peninggalan terhadap sesama kita.

sygku,kau la segala2 padaku,
dan ku tahu,kau pun begitu padaku.

sygku,ku meminta ampun,seampun2nya,
dan kau tahu,ku tidak pernah berniat membuatkn drimu terseksa.

sygku,

sygku,

sygku,

aku mencintai mu dengan sepenuh hatiku,
aku tidak ingin melukakan mu, dan kau mengetahui nya,lebih dari ku tahui.

jangan la kita diucap "selamat tinggal" kepada diri kita msing2,
ucapkan la "jangan kau pergi dariku"..

"jangan kau pergi tinggalkan ku..."
"aku perlukan mu..."

"aku perlukan mu..."

"aku perlukan mu..."

aku perlukan mu,
han perlukan syg...:'(

after i finish my istikharah prayers just now,

while im praying for the almighty Allay S.W.T.

“Ya Allah, saya memohonkan pilihan menurut pengetahuanMu dan memohonkan penetapan dengan kesuasaanMu juga saya memohonkan kurniaMu yang besar, sebab sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui dan saya tidak mengetahui apa-apa. Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah, jikalau di dalam ilmuMu bahawa urusan saya ini……..baik untukku dalam agamaku, kehidupanku serta akibat urusanku, maka takdirkanlah untukku dan mudahkanlah serta berikanlah berkah kepadaku di dalamnya. Sebaliknya jikala di dalam ilmumu bahawa urusan ini buruk untukku, dalam agamaku, kehidupan serta akibat urusanku, maka jauhkanlah hal itu daripadaku dan jauhkanlah aku daripadanya serta takdirkanlah untukku yang baik-baik saja dimana saja adanya, kemudian puaskanlah hatiku dengan takdirMu itu.”

i cry...because i know,i really need you in my life...i really3 need you...

syg,han masih perlukan syg...

sesungguhnya,syg je la penyeri hidup han nie...tanpa syg,hidup han gelap...

han taw han da berulang kali sakiti hati syg,

han taw han slalu marah syg,

sesungguhnya,han x pernah melintas di fikiran han nie,utk melukakan hati syg yg han cntai ini...

sesungguhnya,han hanya ingin mengembirakan hati syg ini...

han pernah lukakan hati syg...han taw han da keterlaluan,

namun,han harap syg fham,

waktu tu,han berasa tertekan,tertekan bkn kerna syg,tp tertekan dgn keadaan yg melanda han,dan,sesungguhnya,han perlukan syg utk menghadapi sume dugaan ni...

han,syg...kite sme2 menghadapi pelbagai cabaran...dan dugaan...dan semestinya semua kegembiraan...insya allah...


i will never want to hurt you...
i will never let you down...
and i will make you proud of me...that i could make you the happiest person in our life..

every moment in my life,i always try my hardest,my best,to make you smile...

and if,there's a moment where i hurt you too deep,so much deep till you became to hate me,

please belief,i never want to do that,and,that's not me what im done to hurt you...because,i never want to hurt you..


I WILL NEVER WANT TO HURT YOU,I JUST WANT TO MAKE YOU SMILE...

THAT'S WHAT I'M HERE FOR YOU,TO LOVE YOU,TO MAKE YOU SMILE...

sakit dan sedih bile ku membace komen nya...

"cume my mum nk ak cri doc or sum1 better than him..ak sdeyh..:("

am i not for you?am i already will not choosed by ur mum?

please...what happened?i am not better...

Greetings All...

car or bike?which would you all prefer for...erm...student's life?

i do like bike,and also like cars toooo...but,which is better?hoho...

bike would be for easy rider,you care less about it because its just not much to care of...and no one would ask for ride to anywhere,because its yours.and 2-seats available only.haha...but,if rainy day?damn...and,u want to go out for date with....BIKE????serious???not so encourage that idea though...zzz...

car?what about car??much more convenience of cause...you need to take good care of it,of cause..but when it come to...."hey,mind if you give me a ride to ____ ?"Urgh~ thats definitely sucks..."HELLO~IM NOT A CUB!" aren't they just the type of taking advantage on their friends???boys,especially who'd already have mate,are you guys simply give ride to....any girls ask for ride?never thought of how your beloved feels? *sigh*,its not about "sporting gf @ bf i have..." , its about how you care about your loved one's feelings...

if your girl take ride with other boys...how would you feel? ^$#%^#$%@#%!...strike to core of your heart.the pain,its too much to resist...don't care of what's the purpose,it's general...YOUR GIRL GET RIDE WITH OTHER BOY!!!!

what @ how would you feel about that?

well,your loved one would feel the same when you have car,act cool out there,and ive ride to people...especially girls...*sigh*...


but going date with car is better,safer...

so?which???

i love Ninja!!!
i love Ferrari too!!!


zzz.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

I'm really miss you,dear.

just a moment ago I accompanied my friends, went outside to buy his ticket going to his girlfriend's place,and...sure meet together.

mean while,it's in the radio playing "Where'd you go" by Fort Minor.


Where'd you go? I miss you so, seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone.

*Sigh!* i just met her a few days ago,yet,after awhile i'm back to my place,my heart was so,so,so heavy to see her walk away out from my sight. I wish I could call "I want to stay...I want you...I don;t want you to go back there..."