My Land is...somewhere out There

assalamualaikum..

syg merajuk,tgh merajuk ngn abg, sbb abg smlm trtdo wktu tgh ber-msg ngn syg. abg taw smlm adalah mlm trakhir bg syg ad kt rmah utk thun nie.

syg ckp abg x pndai jge hati,taw skitkn hati je.hait..i somehow admit it..bt,syg...abg pn pndi jge hati...mngkin dr sgi syg x nmpk mcne abg jge hti. mcne tu?xdpt diluahkn ngn kte2..

nmpknya syg mkin mrah kt abg..smpi ckp abg mcm tu..

abg nk mntk maaf,syg..abg akn tggu syg..syg jgn la mrah abg smpi ckp abg mcm tu..

i love you,n i miss you..

abg doakn syg slamat dlm perjalanan..jgn lupe bace doa,syg..


most important,

i will keep on waiting for you..

syg,abg mntk maaf...tpi,jgn la syg tnggalkn abg...

stelah cabaran pahit kte lalui,jgn la syg tnggalkn abg..

abg prlukn syg..abg taw,syg jgk prlukn abg..

tlg la jgn tnggalkn abg...


i love you,syg..

abg akn tggu syg...

Sebagai orang Islam, kita tahu masing2, perlu menigkut hokum syarak yang telah ditetapkan.

Di sini ingin disampikan satu perbincangan.

Bertunang: Antara Adat dan Syarak

oleh: Ustaz Muhammad Rashidi Bin Haji Wahab*

TAKRIF PERTUNANGAN

Ulama dari mazhab Maliki (Hatab):
Pertunangan adalah satu ungkapan untuk menyeru kepada pernikahan dan apa-apa yang berlaku dari perbualan.

Ulama dari mazhab Shafie (Umairah):
Pertunangan adalah menyentuh (mengemukakan) pernikahan daripada orang yang diambil kira dengannya.

Daripada takrif pertunangan di atas dapatlah kita ketahui bahawa pertunangan ini adalah semata-mata satu perjanjian di antara dua pihak (pihak lelaki dan pihak perempuan) untuk melangsungkan perkahwinan. Pertunangan bukanlah satu akad seperti pernikahan dan memutuskan pertunangan dengan sebab-sebab tertentu bukanlah suatu kesalahan.

PERTUNANGAN DI SISI SYARAK

Terbahagi kepada lima cara:
- Lelaki memberitahu hajatnya untuk meminang kepada seorang perempuan secara langsung.
- Lelaki memberitahu hajatnya untuk meminang kepada wali perempuan.
- Menggunakan pihak ketiga untuk meminang.
- Wali menawarkan anak perempuannya kepada seorang lelaki soleh.
- Perempuan menawarkan dirinya sendiri kepada seorang lelaki soleh.

Sekiranya kedua-dua pihak telah bersetuju dan menerima (menggunakan salah satu cara di atas) maka ini adalah sudah dikira bertunang di sisi syarak.


PERTUNANGAN DI SISI ADAT

Kebiasaannya pihak lelaki akan memberikan barang-barang hantaran ke rumah pihak perempuan pada majlis pertunangan yang telah ditetapkan. Kemudian perempuan akan disarungkan cincin di jari manisnya sebagai tanda sudah bertunang. Maka pihak perempuan akan menetapkan dan membincangkan hantaran untuk perkahwinan berdasarkan status seseorang perempuan itu. Dan diakhiri dengan bacaan doa dan sedikit jamuan ringan. Majlis pertunangan ini diadakan selepas kedua-dua pihak bersetuju untuk bertunang selepas adat merisik.

Pemberian cincin semasa pertunangan adalah suatu adat yang diamalkan di Malaysia (mungkin diambil dari warisan orang bukan Islam) dan ia bukanlah satu syariat yang telah ditetapkan oleh Islam. Namun ia tidaklah menjadi satu kesalahan sekiranya pemberian cincin itu diberikan sekadar tanda pertunangan selagimana tidak menyalahi syariat. Perlu diketahui bahawa menganggap perbuatan menanggalkan cincin sebagai tanda pertunangan diputuskan maka ia adalah bercanggah dengan Islam.

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Jatuhnya hukum tunang.

Percaya atau tidak, kita boleh ber”tunang” tanpa sedar?? Yup, kita boleh bertunang tanpa kita sedar, bila seorang lelaki, berhasrat untuk mengambil seorang perempuan untuk dijadikan isteri. Eh, itu memang normal bukan? Tapi, yang anda mungkin x tahu, anda sebenarnya sudah bertunang bila situasi seperti berikut berlaku:

Lelaki menyatakan hasrat ingin menjadikan perempuan itu isterinya, dan perempuan itu bersetuju. Adakah dikira telah bertunang? Padahal tidak ada ibu bapa perempuan tersebut.

Pinang dari segi hukum fiqah, bererti pihak lelaki menyatakan hasrat berkahwin pada pihak perempuan. Itu dipanggil pinang. Bila perempuan menjawab setuju, maka jadilah perempuan itu tunang laki tersebut.

Situasi yang dianggap pinangan:

"Aku nak jadikan kamu sebagai isteriku."
"Kahwinlah dengan kita bila2."

Bila si perempuan bersetuju, dia akan jadi tunang. Sama ada bercakap dalam telefon, tetap dah jadi tunang.

Contoh:

lelaki sebut dalam telefon, "I nak jadikan u isteri I lah"

Perempuan tersebut jawab, I sukalah, I setujulah, oraitt I’m fine, oklah, I redha atau apa2 yang menunjukkan dia suka dengan “pinangan” lelaki tersebut, maka ia sudah dianggap bertunang.

Jadi, bila dia dah jadi tunang orang tanpa sedar, bila ada lelaki yang meminang, hukumnya haram.

Kita orang melayu time nak tunang duk bawak rombongan 1 bas, bawak barang2 pinangan, itu sebenarnya adalah ADAT bukan dari segi hukum Islam. Dari segi hukum Islam, dah jatuh hukum tunang.

Persoalan ialah bila Ibu bapa tak ada. Mengikut hukum syarak, kalau perempuan itu sudah diizin pada syarak. Sebagai contoh, perempuan yang cerdik, yang baligh, yang blh berfikir, etc dia sudah dianggap bertunang.

Bila perempuan tu x menepati hukum syarak tersebut, contoh seperti x baligh lagi(baru darjah 3 mungkin), perempuan tu bodoh(x boleh berfikir), gila, dan sebagainya, makanya wali diperlukan untuk jawab “pinangan” tersebut.

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Let me be your hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

I just want to hold you
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight

You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero






is this the end?no,i never wish it to be happen.I'm dreaming.I've been dreaming all the time,that she wants to leave me.that she had enough with me.that she'll never wants me again.I'm sure i dream a lot...

she try to leave me,again...what I've done wrong?all i sent is..."i want to take care mum and you. both are mum,my mum,and my future child's mum.."

what have i done wrong with those words? i can't see it through...

all i want to say,is that,she's important to me.very very very important to me...

why she wants to leave me??? :'(

please don't go,love.

please don't go...

I need you very much here...:'(

dear love,

I am sorry for letting you down always.(hug you).I am regret for hurting you so much.(hug you more tightly).

I realized I made my biggest mistake.And I am full of regrets now.For everything single tiny mistake i've made,hurts you so deep,so bad.I am sorry to tell you,that i do everything,is not to lost you.I do everything I could,to understand you more deeply,so that I am the one fits in your life.

I do without realize it,hurt u...

the incident,the talk we had,though Im really frustrated that you hang up my call.I just want to explain evrything so that I could fix our love into better life,better love,for us to cherish evrything we had untill this very seconds.

Im totally mad at you for that incident,you could just tell me like that,and the rest,its up to me to accept your explanation.isn't it?I too found out myself,but,I keep telling myself,that you maybe have your very own reason why you dint tell me. As for me,I really do have reason why I dint tell you at the time.I wish you could open your heart and let me in,whisper to your heart.

You help your neighbour,making kueh. you faint that day,don't you know i worry so much? every time you have your free time,you came look for me,which i keep playing my phone,wait for your text.I really do.once you're in,how can i directly tell you?all i ever think is,is to entertain you,i want to see your smile,i want to make you happy. I don't want to greet you with by story you the chatting between me and your friend. I was totally forget it when you're in,all i think,is want to manje with you,besides that thought,I really dint think about else thing. this was my reason for why i dint tell you at the moment. (i wish you could wait for me to tell,because i was about to tell you)

but thing getting worse when we talk,and i split the wrong dead things. I was totally insane of it,I do regret and hate myself for that. I was mad at that time,I split that out just for preference of our current situation. really do no offense, but i just let my emotions take control,and ask you fair or not for me. to think about it,i just want you to listen,and take it so that we could fix thing together to better us.i know how you feel when you found out yourself.i felt that before.my intentions is not to revenge,or to hurt you.but,when you knowing it,u felt the same things as i am,at that time.

BUT,i was just too late one step,i really do want to tell you this morning after woke up,just dint expect that you say it 1st,and evrything turn upside down.you said that im will keep on breaking promises.I was just about to tell you before you tell me.:( how could i explain better to you?i just late 1 text..:( i want to be honest with you,i want you to live with my honest-ness,and trust.its not the promises i want to keep sticking between you and me,i want love that bond us each other.

the reason i choose to write you this letter,is because i know,1st: call wouldn't work.2nd: text would just do worse.

i wrote to you,i want you to read carefully,why i acting that harsh,and i really sorry for that.i really do.

and for you,i want you to be my wife.i want to love you.and i am doing everthing right now,this moment,to fix this up,and get back holding hands together,and walk in the same path.i do believe you wanted this all as much as i am.

with full of humble,regretness,guilty,sorry,desperate,sadness,

I begging you,if i ever do brought hope,brought dream,brought joy to you,brought smile and happy.and if you really love me much more than i am,please come back to me.and walk in the same path together again.

I need you,I love you,I can't live without you.

please do not leave me alone. :(
abg mntk maaf,sygku...



i will wait for your positive answer.i will wait.

is there anything something you hate about yourself?
-i hate when i cant do everything for you








i need you,so please don't go,my love...

27th July 2011.My eyes stuck on the schedule tv. "9.40 | MHxxx | Bahrain | ARRIVED/LANDED"

...

Thank God,Alhamdulilah. She's safely arrive Malaysia with delayed an hour, its ok,more important, she's arrived.

my heart was beating like a Ferrari's 600hp engine running in my body.with speed of 240kmh. beats like a thunder bird, awaits for the moment she show up in front of my eyes. and......

looking at a girl pushing luggage troley,with her light brown creamy shirt,with her-matching scaf. im trying to sneak on her eyes,get the feelings to do tht...

im thinking the right thing,it's her..finally...SHE HERE!!! :D

looking at her,trying to search someone,and trying to dial on her phone,i made my step,step by step,make myself,beatings with a 600hp Ferrari engine,approach her.

i look into her eyes,look at her face...a face that i didnt meet for a very long.....4 months time...

there's many things happend back thr within 4 months...sweet,sad,bitter,sour...evrything had happend, but now,who would imagine how excited am i,how happy am i to at last,meet my precious,lovely,pretty(but later she said that she's in the mess,yet,i think she's pretty),sweet lover.

I am so miss her damn much.really much...i couldn't imagine if i cant see her again...

if tomorrow never comes,would she know how much i love her...

for the time being we havent meet so long,i myself,feeling so awkward...its like,we just meet for couple of time,but the truth,we have been together for quite long...n looking forward for our 2nd anniversary for the next couple of months ahead,Insya-Allah...

i having an awkward time with her that day,felt so funny to myself.i should act more gentleman in front of her.*sigh*

luggage load on car,people loaded too.we're heading to our place-that-we-will-spend-time-together.where?

i promised her to bring her to watch Harry Potter and the deadly hollows.part II.so,i brought her to GSC cinema.
although i dint read JK Rowling's HP's books,i have a person seats beside me to tell me a little bit of the story.everytime she tried to explain how the scene,and i was...like..."oooh~",and she "you dint read???" and i just smile to her.. :)

had some sweet time,enjoy ourself quite well back in thr. :)

before we head to cinema,we 1st search for something to fill up our stomach...i told her some restaurant in the shopping complex,and...we finally going to some Italian restaurant.quite good environment in there.clean,relax,the aroma of the ginger bread(when we approach the restaurant,that's wht she tells me : "smells like...ginger bread!smells nice..")

for the menu,we ordered,a Lasagna,for her,and bolognese for me.

so,once the food placed in front of us,we just could smells the aroma from the lasagna,so nice...her first bites,"mmmmmmm~nice" "this is the best lasagna i ever tasted"

oh my...im so glad to bring her to a place where she cn enjoy the meals,n meet her taste so well. :)

ehem,looking forward for to...well,trying to feed her... :$

after wht we having tht day..we spent time together,i really appreciate for the time we had...i really do...we all wanted so much to spend time with our loves one..

so,please do find some times,to spend time with our beloved one.show them we love her,show her we are meant to be together,meant to be bond with the love.
never force someone who doesnt replied to your love.show them respect.

i hope,those people who try to disturb our life,please dont do so,you wont want something like that to happen to ur life as well.please respect our life,our privacy.our decision.






for that day's date,im thanks to my beloved one for spending times together with me,i had a really great time with you,love.and i do hope,we will have such,and more great dates ahead us in the future..

i love you,now and always. :-*

dear,im dedicate this song to you...by Talking Modern...

Deep in my heart - there's a fire - a burning heart
Deep in my heart - there's desire - for a start
I'm dying in emotion
It's my world in fantasy
I'm living in my, living in my dreams

You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll keep it shining everywhere I go
You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll be holding you forever
Stay with you together

Your my heart, you're my soul
Yeah, I'm feeling that our love will grow
You're my heart, you're my soul
That's the only thing I really know

Let's close the door and believe my burning heart
Feeling alright come on open up your heart
Keep the candles burning
Let your body melt in mine
I'm living in my, living in my dreams

You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll keep it shining everywhere I go
You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll be holding you forever
Stay with you together

Your my heart, you're my soul
Yeah, I'm feeling that our love will grow
You're my heart, you're my soul
That's the only thing I really know

You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll keep it shining everywhere I go
You're my heart, you're my soul
I'll be holding you forever
Stay with you together

Your my heart, you're my soul
Yeah, I'm feeling that our love will grow
You're my heart, you're my soul
That's the only thing I really know


seriously,i dnt knw wht this songs about...all i know...all i want to tell you my dear...

you're my heart,you're my soul...and i'm feeling our love definitely growing...

another stupid,useless of me...100% stupidity...100% useless...

just a moment ago..i made my fiance upset,mad...twice in a min,that's what she said..."U DONE IT TWICE...WITHIN MINUTES"

i am so damn...

dear love,

i'm so sorry...for making you mad,upset..instead of comforting you,make you ease...i have no idea why im such a stupid to do that...dear,im sorry for my stupidity...

for you,you are the greatest person i ever met...you forgive me...everytime...and here i just want to ask from you...again...please do forgive me...forgive me because of my stupidity and useless...

dear,i need you...dear,i love you...

i barely to able see in the inside...and i need you to teach me the right way to see it...

people always say...women are hard to understand...

for me,yes it is...dear,you are so mysterious,so great,and so hard to understand...i always...i just do always...know how to love you from the inside...im sorry tht im just dumb and just know to love you from the inside...i just understand thie love part...

please,dont go...
please,dont leave me...
please,i need you...

:(

x tahu macam mane nk start...

ak ngn tunang ak bergado ag...

semua nya sbb ak blas chatting sorg kosmate ak...

ak x tahu yang klau ak blas chtting org ni,ak dikire ad niat nk khianat cnte ak,nk pecah jnji ak trhdap tunang ak...(jnji xkn ckp slen prkara pnting)

ak akui,dlu,ak prnh pecah jnji...tp,ad sehari tu,ak da btol2 sedar...ak xbley wat tunang ak mcm tu...wlaupn ak xd niat nk wat mcm tu,still,berat hati nk trme...

blik semula,tunang ak mrah ak...ak pecah jnji,ak khianat dy...ckp ak,msih bley prcye kt ak ke?tny ak,sorg dy x ckup ke?pe dy wat smpi kne trme sume nie(dr pndngn dy,iaitu,ak pecah jnji n khiahat dy)

ak trjge tgh2 mlm,tgk msg mcm tu...ak bedebar...ape ak wat smpi dy ckp ak mcm tu?
slah ke ak blas chttng kosmate ak,n bertny khbar?

dy tny ak,klu ak x blas,ap sume nie(pergadohan ni) berlaku?x kan?jawab...x kan?

ak ckp,ye,x(x kn berlaku)...

ak ckp ag..."abg mntk maaf sbb blas chttng dy" waktu ni,dlm hati ak, : abg xprnh sngke yg abg blas chat dy,tny khbr,ad lah d'kire khianat/pecah jnji trhadap syg.

ak ckp ag yg ak x brniat pn nk wat 2 prkara(khianat n pecah jnji) tu...

dy ckp,for me,people who keep doing the same mistakes,thts wht betrayal...niat x mnghalalkn cre...directly,u betray ur own words to me...

dlm hati ak: why thr's for me?where's "for us"?

dy ckp ag,i want to be alone rght nw...i cnt thnk...u did tht many times...i dnt knw...

ak diam,

lps 10 mins,dy hntr msg...ckp,klu ad jodoh,insya Allah(kita akn dijodohkn),klu xde,ad pmpuan yg ag baik utk awk dr sy.assalamualaikum.

ak terdiam...ak berfikir...knape hrus difikrkn mcm tu akhir nya?periktan kini ialah pertunangan,bkn nyer ber'couple-couple'-ing...

ak berfikir sejenak...
(waktu tu tunang ak da offline,mngkin itu hny sngaje,sbb xnk dgr pe ak nk ckp)

pape pn,ak blas msg tu...sume tulus dari hati,
"syg fkr la...pe abg ckp di ats sume tu...dgn segala pnjelasan yg syg anggap itu hny alasan...tgk la blik pe abg ckp,pe abg jelaskn...klu syg x dpt trme pnjelasan abg,syg msih ag nk judge abg ngn pe syg nmpk,n bkn pe syg teliti...
syg xdpt trme pe yg ditelitikn,tp syg cme trme pe yg dilihatkn...terus terang abg smpikn..."

ak diam sekejap,memikirkn sesuatu dgn sgt teliti,xbley dikata dgn lalal,dgn was2...

ak bersmbung,
"abg xnk org yg mcm tu(ayt yg di-italic-kn) jd istri abg...(dlm hati ak,ak sgt sdey tatkala ak tulis sume nie kpd tunang ak)...abg nk org yg teliti satu2 hal dgn tnp musykil,tnp berat sebelah....n nilai bnd tu...
klu syg msih x trme pe abg jelaskn,mean syg xdpt jd pe yg abg inginkn...so,xyh la nk kte ad jodoh ke x..."

ak mnghabiskn ayt2 ak mcm tu...ak sgt sdey...ak trtny pd dri sndri,knape la tunang ak perlu berkate demikian(ad jodoh,insya Allah la,xde,ag pmpuan yg ag bek utk awk dr sy)...

setelah lame ak ngn tunang ak bersme,usia x tua,bru setahun 8 bulan...perlu ke berakhir ngn kesedihan,dan bkn nya mimpi2 yg selalu kita ber cerita bersme?

x lme msg sume tu,tunang ak hntr sms kpd ak...(pd mkluman sume,ak di tanah air,Malaysia,dan tunang ak di Mesir)

"I ddnt consider it as excuses..bt,im mad bcz u're doing th sme thng,again n again..apologizing,promises.n betraying it w/o u noticed it..thn,apologizing again.."

ini la sms yg tunang ak hntr kt ak...

kte2 tunang ak bermain di fikiran ak...

"bt,im mad bcz u're doing th sme thng,again n again..apologizing,promises.n betraying it w/o u noticed it..."

ye,ak salah,aku selalu berulang2 bersalah,dan meminta maaf dr tunang ak...
namun,adil kah penilaian ini dilakukan?ak sgt sdey,sbb x adil aku dibicarakn...ak dinilai,dgn ape yg dilihat,dan bkn nyer ape yg dibace dan ditelitikn...

wahai tunangku,ku sudah bernyawa2 ikan...sudah tntu awk tahu pe mksud nie...

sy hanya berharap awk dpt berfikir dgn care baik...care sbgai sorg tunang,sorg bkal istri,sorg bkal mnjadi ibu,sorg bakal mnjadi doctor..dan bknnyer berfikir secara emotional(i told u,i asked u to do smething regards it..) dan berat sebelah...

saya xkn cari awk,tp,sy tnggu jwpan awk...

my love,

love,that exist between us,been over 1 and half years...after what we're going through,what we gained from this love...the joy,the sad,the sweet,the bitter...all are coming together...but,do we realize,all the scene,the happening...is bring us to more love...MORE love...sometimes we feels hate of it,but,for the truth,it actually bring lots of lots of love...

love,from the beginning, we both know,there's no "end" such word...

i love you,very3 much...

simple,short entry...

dear,are you because you miss me too much,you miss me so damn much...that's why you hate me??

:'(

I am a useless, terrified person.

I hurt her so much...so deep...I'm the guy that ever hurt her so much deep...





What am I?I'm so terrible.
She's so nice,so good to me...far too good...I think,she's just too good to me...but I want only her.I love her,love her so much...

"forever you're my girl, forever you're my world...you're the only one..."

at the moment,i really feel want to hug her so much...but,i couldn't help myself for being so damn far from her.we''re 5000++ miles away from each other,and we just could meet once a year.and that,we have to go through this suffers for 6 years.not only that, we're also have time difference...5hrs difference...damn...

I just want to protect this love,this bond...as soft as silk...and so fragile...

love,I try my best...and i will try even harder now,to protect our love...

I want to make you smile...yes,i want to make you smile,dear...

but i'm such a terrible person am I?I just know how to hurts you,I just know how to make you cry...

yet,still...I want to make you smile with my love...:(

so,please allow me to do that honor...please stay with me,dear...never leave me...


disisimu.selalu ku ada.

awk,

dari hujung rambut kepala sy,hingga ke hujung kaki sy, sy nk mntk maaf pd awk.

pe yg awk rse, 'betrayal', syg nk jelaskn yg pe yg berlaku,bkn smte2 'betrayal'.

sy mntk maaf skli lg,awk. tp, awk sndri tau,awk sndri dpt rse. sy xkn buat sebegitu pg awk.

pertama,sy nk jelaskn 1 bnd yg pling pnting yg wujud di antara kite berdue.

cinta,cinta saya pd awk,xprnh pudar,shingga kini,in makin berkembang,dan subur.

awk mmndng prkara itu sbg 'betrayal',namun tidak. sbb, klu sy 'betray' ats pe yg brlaku, apakah sy msih merasakn degunpn jntung awk di dlm dri sy?

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya,sya,hanya ingin diri ini,awk,dijadikn tulang rusukku yg bengkok,utk diluruskn dgn selembut yg ku upaya.

awk,sy mngkin ad berinteraksi dgn diorg,sy akui,sy x dpt elak ats dasar seorg ketue(ok,nie x kire,sy elakkn sebyk yg mngkin utk x berinteraksi).

ye,awk mrah,awk ckp sy 'betray' sbb pe yg awk da lihat. mngkn awk x prcye kte2 sy sudah,ye,mmg pn.tp,sy brhrapkn awk lihat semula.fkr semula.

Do trust meant to be betray??

NEVER MEANT TO BETRAY!!!!awk,sy x betray awk,awk. knapa sy nk betray seseorg yg sy kasihi?yg sy cintai?yg sy xdpt hdup klu xde org nie,iaitu awk.

tu la bnd ke2,mcm sy ckp ptg td. sya x prnh betray awk.

awk,sy sorg yg lemah,awk taw x?smpikn sy nk pngsan pe sume,skrng pn, rse mcm sy nk pengsan nie...

bnd ni,akn trjadi bile sesorg nie tramat la mncintai sesorg itu.awk shngga nangis smpi dpt heart attck...itu sbb cinta awk pd sy...yg tramat sgt...

awk,sy xkn betray,sbb air mata awk,adalah bnd yg pling diharagi yg mne pling prlu dijaga agar tidak trkluar.


awk,sy lemah,lemah sgt3 tnpa awk.smpi thap mne,sy pn x dpt byngkn.


awk,sy mntk maaf skli lg,awk.awk msih syg sy,itu la pe yg sy hrapkn...

awk,sy hny sukekn awk...hny awk sorg sje yg sy suke.dan,sy xprnh ad niat dlm hati yg kecil nie,utk betray cinta kita yg sehalus sutera.ye,cinta kita sehalus itu,awk.

awk,pe yg sy nk smpikn ialah..sy lngsung xdpt dipisahkn dr awk,sejak pd hari sy temui awk.rse itu sekuat sebenar2nya,awk.sy ykin,awk pn rse mcm 2...

hati sy,hati lemah.hati awk,selemah2 sy,mngkn lg lemah.hati seorg gadis,hati seorg yg dicintai,perlu dijaga...dan,sy,dgn kebenaran awk,ingin menjaga hati awk sebaik yg mngkin.


i love you,syg...i try my best to not to brake any of the promises...and i try my very best on it...i try my best,to protect our love...our precious love...

i'm soory i done 1 promise broken..

please come back to me...i need you...as you need me...

i love you...

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you're the only one i want...which part of it you din't understand?:'(

i just want you to be the one...i just want us meant to be...:'(

hatiku.untukmu.selalu.

di sisimu.selaluku ada.

sweetheart,

i miss you...

i love you...

:)

En.HoneY.

i've been thinking...

distance is killing...time is...running???

*sigh~* distance, she is so far away from me...5096 miles away from me...what should i do so that i could keep our distance is close???

time...5 years...5 years of waiting...

5 years...i wish...it worth to wait...

do you ever fall in love?if you dont,you wouldn't understand this feelings of a human being...

feelings that drive you crazy...

feelings that make you totally in insanity...

feelings that romance you...

feelings that made you comfort with someone...

feelings that made you feel you found half of yourself...

found your other pair of heart...


i love her...i miss her...like crazy...

friend>love>???

what would happen???we all wish for happy ending...such a subjective,how's the ending you wnt to be??

marriage...

who ever think of that???

life after marriage...much more happier than now...it would be such...truly...its the happiest,safest,prospered life you will have...

who will guarantee it????

you...

"i want to hear u...huhu!!!"

that was the msg i received from her when she's in the flight, waiting to depart to Abu Dhabi...

i called her...though,i just cnt hear her voice,it'll make me cries...i know i will...

that call would be the last call,last conversation,before she going back to Egypt.EGYPT!!!i wish she could stay...:'(

"han,syg nk off da nie..."
i silence...i know...that u all know wht happned to me...i cried...

"han???"
i duno what to say,im crying...i dunt know what to say to her...
i try to resist,and speak...

"ye...syg..."
"love you..."
"love you too..."

we hang up...i couldnt bear the tears...they just flow down...slowly by my face...
"she's leaving....yes,she's leaving..." i talked to myself...

before that,i sent a voice message to her...i hope she would listen to it before she's going for her sleep in the night...

i couldnt life without you,syg...

even when u're away from me,i found its too difficult for me...
now,you just too far from me...thousands miles away from me...:'(

i really need you...

when i woke up,i just wish that my phone will have msg from you..."goodmorning,honey..."

now,it seems to be hard to get tht...

in the night,"gudnyte,love...:-*"

as well difficult...

we are far,yet...our time wouldn't be the same...u're 6hours away from me...:'(

you're so far,dear...:'(

i need you by my side...always...and forever...:'(

i love you,always and forever...:'(

syg...han mne ad tidk mluangkn mse utk syg ble han cbuk dgn keje...i reli am...

instead,han nk syg tman...han an prnah gtaw syg...:'(

no matter how busy i am,i always will search the tiniest time for you...han rnh gtaw nie an?syg jgn la lupe...

jgn la ckp han asyk cbuk dgn tu...dgn nie...:'(

han nk syg tman han,sokong han,brde di sisi han...spnjng mse...:'(

han blik lwat,sbb pngajar lps lwat...wht cn i do?:'(

han taw syg tgh tggu han...han pn xnk syg tggu lme2...:'(

han nk blik cpt2...dgn smbutn syg...:'(

han mntk maaf...

tp,an laksanakn jnji han sprti mne han jnji,

han akn cari mse utk syg wlaupn han cbuk mcne pn...

spnjng bngkel tu,han ad cari syg...an? wlaupn syg kte han cbuk ngn bngkel tu,tp,han ad cari syg,msg....:'(

nape ckp han xd mse utk syg?:'(

han tgh bersedih sebenarnya,syg, waktu han call...

han xtaw sedih pe...han terfikir2 pe syg ckp kt han mlm tu...

sgt2 sakit bila difikirkan...sgt2...mmbuatkn han rse,"bek ak mati je la..."

han jd trauma,syg...trauma sume bnd2 x bek utk kte,akn berlaku lg..

trauma yg syg akn btol2 tnggalkan han,sdngkn syg berjnji pd han...

han trfikir ap akn trjadi ble syg btol2 buat sedemikian,















han x snggup mmikirkan sume tu...han xnk sume tu berlaku...han perlukan syg di sisi han...slalu......



han prlukan syg...
ble han mrah,han nk syg redakn mrah han dgn cnta syg trhdap han...
ble han merase trtekan,han hrapkan syg utk redakn han dgn ksih syg syg kpd han...
ble han sdeyh,han hrapkan belaian syg kpd han...
x kire la ble han mrah,han trtekan,han sdeyh...dan wlaupape pn yg x bgus brlaku pd han,n han hilang kawalan...

percaya la,syg...waktu itu,syg je la yg han amat perlukn utk perbaikkan perasaan han...bkn utk dijadi mngse,bkn utk dimarahi,tp utk disayangi...han nk syg pujuk han dgn ksih syg,cnta syg kpd han...

han telefon,utk mntk maaf kt syg,sedalam2 nyr...sejujurnya...han mntk maaf sgt2...han xbergune,han x layak dlm hdup syg...tp,han hnya dpt berusaha utk mndpt kelayakan itu di diri syg...

stiap detik,han berusaha utk pulihkan hubungn kte,utk wat syg gmbre,snyum...

:'(

im deeply apology,dear...

i just couldn't talk in the phone,i scared that u will be get mad more to me...:'(

i really sorry,dear...i never ever in my life,every moment with your love,never ever mean to hurt you...

because i just too love you very much...

this is especially for you,my love,syg...

sesungguhnya bila ku melukai hatimu,percaya la,
ku sedang menusuk panah berbisa kala di hatiku,

sesungguhnya bila kau mengampuni ku,percaya la,
ku berusaha dengan sebetol-betolnya utk tidak mengulangi nya lagi,

sesungguhnya bila kau ingin pergi jauh dari sisiku, percaya la,
ku merasakan jasadku tanpa seurat roh di dada,

sesungguhnya bila kau pergi utk selamanya,percaya la,
ku xkn dpt hidup lagi mulai saat itu,

sesungguhnya bila kita bersatu,percaya la,
kita bersatu sebetol-betolnya,

sesungguhnya, sygku,ku tahu segala isi hatimu,percaya la,
aku dan kamu,tidak inginkan peninggalan terhadap sesama kita.

sygku,kau la segala2 padaku,
dan ku tahu,kau pun begitu padaku.

sygku,ku meminta ampun,seampun2nya,
dan kau tahu,ku tidak pernah berniat membuatkn drimu terseksa.

sygku,

sygku,

sygku,

aku mencintai mu dengan sepenuh hatiku,
aku tidak ingin melukakan mu, dan kau mengetahui nya,lebih dari ku tahui.

jangan la kita diucap "selamat tinggal" kepada diri kita msing2,
ucapkan la "jangan kau pergi dariku"..

"jangan kau pergi tinggalkan ku..."
"aku perlukan mu..."

"aku perlukan mu..."

"aku perlukan mu..."

aku perlukan mu,
han perlukan syg...:'(

after i finish my istikharah prayers just now,

while im praying for the almighty Allay S.W.T.

“Ya Allah, saya memohonkan pilihan menurut pengetahuanMu dan memohonkan penetapan dengan kesuasaanMu juga saya memohonkan kurniaMu yang besar, sebab sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui dan saya tidak mengetahui apa-apa. Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah, jikalau di dalam ilmuMu bahawa urusan saya ini……..baik untukku dalam agamaku, kehidupanku serta akibat urusanku, maka takdirkanlah untukku dan mudahkanlah serta berikanlah berkah kepadaku di dalamnya. Sebaliknya jikala di dalam ilmumu bahawa urusan ini buruk untukku, dalam agamaku, kehidupan serta akibat urusanku, maka jauhkanlah hal itu daripadaku dan jauhkanlah aku daripadanya serta takdirkanlah untukku yang baik-baik saja dimana saja adanya, kemudian puaskanlah hatiku dengan takdirMu itu.”

i cry...because i know,i really need you in my life...i really3 need you...

syg,han masih perlukan syg...

sesungguhnya,syg je la penyeri hidup han nie...tanpa syg,hidup han gelap...

han taw han da berulang kali sakiti hati syg,

han taw han slalu marah syg,

sesungguhnya,han x pernah melintas di fikiran han nie,utk melukakan hati syg yg han cntai ini...

sesungguhnya,han hanya ingin mengembirakan hati syg ini...

han pernah lukakan hati syg...han taw han da keterlaluan,

namun,han harap syg fham,

waktu tu,han berasa tertekan,tertekan bkn kerna syg,tp tertekan dgn keadaan yg melanda han,dan,sesungguhnya,han perlukan syg utk menghadapi sume dugaan ni...

han,syg...kite sme2 menghadapi pelbagai cabaran...dan dugaan...dan semestinya semua kegembiraan...insya allah...


i will never want to hurt you...
i will never let you down...
and i will make you proud of me...that i could make you the happiest person in our life..

every moment in my life,i always try my hardest,my best,to make you smile...

and if,there's a moment where i hurt you too deep,so much deep till you became to hate me,

please belief,i never want to do that,and,that's not me what im done to hurt you...because,i never want to hurt you..


I WILL NEVER WANT TO HURT YOU,I JUST WANT TO MAKE YOU SMILE...

THAT'S WHAT I'M HERE FOR YOU,TO LOVE YOU,TO MAKE YOU SMILE...

sakit dan sedih bile ku membace komen nya...

"cume my mum nk ak cri doc or sum1 better than him..ak sdeyh..:("

am i not for you?am i already will not choosed by ur mum?

please...what happened?i am not better...

Greetings All...

car or bike?which would you all prefer for...erm...student's life?

i do like bike,and also like cars toooo...but,which is better?hoho...

bike would be for easy rider,you care less about it because its just not much to care of...and no one would ask for ride to anywhere,because its yours.and 2-seats available only.haha...but,if rainy day?damn...and,u want to go out for date with....BIKE????serious???not so encourage that idea though...zzz...

car?what about car??much more convenience of cause...you need to take good care of it,of cause..but when it come to...."hey,mind if you give me a ride to ____ ?"Urgh~ thats definitely sucks..."HELLO~IM NOT A CUB!" aren't they just the type of taking advantage on their friends???boys,especially who'd already have mate,are you guys simply give ride to....any girls ask for ride?never thought of how your beloved feels? *sigh*,its not about "sporting gf @ bf i have..." , its about how you care about your loved one's feelings...

if your girl take ride with other boys...how would you feel? ^$#%^#$%@#%!...strike to core of your heart.the pain,its too much to resist...don't care of what's the purpose,it's general...YOUR GIRL GET RIDE WITH OTHER BOY!!!!

what @ how would you feel about that?

well,your loved one would feel the same when you have car,act cool out there,and ive ride to people...especially girls...*sigh*...


but going date with car is better,safer...

so?which???

i love Ninja!!!
i love Ferrari too!!!


zzz.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

I'm really miss you,dear.

just a moment ago I accompanied my friends, went outside to buy his ticket going to his girlfriend's place,and...sure meet together.

mean while,it's in the radio playing "Where'd you go" by Fort Minor.


Where'd you go? I miss you so, seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone.

*Sigh!* i just met her a few days ago,yet,after awhile i'm back to my place,my heart was so,so,so heavy to see her walk away out from my sight. I wish I could call "I want to stay...I want you...I don;t want you to go back there..."

why boys always hurt girls?especially their love one...

yesterday,i just hurt my love,i'd hurt her until she wants to leave me...i m so damn useless...i wish i could explain to her...i dint mean to hurt her...because i love her so damn much...without her,i think,i going to die...living like a corpse...how can a corpse lives?????imagine that...i would be the "corpse"...

syg,i dint mean to hurt you,i really am...i scared that if i tell you why i doing so,u will be more angry to me,and really left me...:'(

yesterday,i was actually like "many-things-come-into-my-mind" and make me feel....serabut...

i feel so desperate too much...and,i'd split those words out of my mouth...and tell them...:( im really sorry,syg...

i really never ever in my life mean to hurt you...u told me its like a knife stab right into your heart...but,i m feeling that too,and its even worse...i tearing my own heart...it just really hurt...im sorry...

i guess no one would read this such entry by the way...