dear love,
I am sorry for letting you down always.(hug you).I am regret for hurting you so much.(hug you more tightly).
I realized I made my biggest mistake.And I am full of regrets now.For everything single tiny mistake i've made,hurts you so deep,so bad.I am sorry to tell you,that i do everything,is not to lost you.I do everything I could,to understand you more deeply,so that I am the one fits in your life.
I do without realize it,hurt u...
the incident,the talk we had,though Im really frustrated that you hang up my call.I just want to explain evrything so that I could fix our love into better life,better love,for us to cherish evrything we had untill this very seconds.
Im totally mad at you for that incident,you could just tell me like that,and the rest,its up to me to accept your explanation.isn't it?I too found out myself,but,I keep telling myself,that you maybe have your very own reason why you dint tell me. As for me,I really do have reason why I dint tell you at the time.I wish you could open your heart and let me in,whisper to your heart.
You help your neighbour,making kueh. you faint that day,don't you know i worry so much? every time you have your free time,you came look for me,which i keep playing my phone,wait for your text.I really do.once you're in,how can i directly tell you?all i ever think is,is to entertain you,i want to see your smile,i want to make you happy. I don't want to greet you with by story you the chatting between me and your friend. I was totally forget it when you're in,all i think,is want to manje with you,besides that thought,I really dint think about else thing. this was my reason for why i dint tell you at the moment. (i wish you could wait for me to tell,because i was about to tell you)
but thing getting worse when we talk,and i split the wrong dead things. I was totally insane of it,I do regret and hate myself for that. I was mad at that time,I split that out just for preference of our current situation. really do no offense, but i just let my emotions take control,and ask you fair or not for me. to think about it,i just want you to listen,and take it so that we could fix thing together to better us.i know how you feel when you found out yourself.i felt that before.my intentions is not to revenge,or to hurt you.but,when you knowing it,u felt the same things as i am,at that time.
BUT,i was just too late one step,i really do want to tell you this morning after woke up,just dint expect that you say it 1st,and evrything turn upside down.you said that im will keep on breaking promises.I was just about to tell you before you tell me.:( how could i explain better to you?i just late 1 text..:( i want to be honest with you,i want you to live with my honest-ness,and trust.its not the promises i want to keep sticking between you and me,i want love that bond us each other.
the reason i choose to write you this letter,is because i know,1st: call wouldn't work.2nd: text would just do worse.
i wrote to you,i want you to read carefully,why i acting that harsh,and i really sorry for that.i really do.
and for you,i want you to be my wife.i want to love you.and i am doing everthing right now,this moment,to fix this up,and get back holding hands together,and walk in the same path.i do believe you wanted this all as much as i am.
with full of humble,regretness,guilty,sorry,desperate,sadness,
I begging you,if i ever do brought hope,brought dream,brought joy to you,brought smile and happy.and if you really love me much more than i am,please come back to me.and walk in the same path together again.
I need you,I love you,I can't live without you.
please do not leave me alone. :(
abg mntk maaf,sygku...
i will wait for your positive answer.i will wait.
