My Land is...somewhere out There

within just less than 4 hours,things going so rough,tough,unpredictable.
i wasn't able to accomplish any of it to make her feel better.
i ever thought this to myself.
i know im the least qualification to have her.
but she choose me,she choose to love me.

bt, she wnt to end it..why??its been almost 3 years for us. and other half way we will getting married.

all the reason is i wasn't able to make thing better. i know im such useless.stupid n everything..

all i hope is she cud give me this second to second to make everything right..

everytime i thought to make things right..sometimes she out of control,i always remind her not to..

all happens because i thought i was making things right,

all my explanation, we judge as excuses..how failure it show i cant convince her.

right now, i wish to return to 4 hours before all those happened. i really wish..bcz i dnt wnt to hurt her..i promise that..

i need you so so so much,please..

im so imperfect,u told it was ok,please..

do you love me this such imperfect person that deadly love you with whole his heart?

do you still actually love me?not knowing when there are sadness,happiness,bitterness.

all the time we shared,i dnt wnt it to be gone n be replaced with other memories.

i need you..

what i am suppose to say when she do the talk,and i felt......like....im not part of her world?

im being so over protective, am i?

anything i asked, i was only thinking of 1 word, share...

sharing is caring...

i ask who you're with,im just want to know which friends u'r with..with who u'r spending,having your day with..

i ask what you guys talks about, because i want to be part of u thr..

i m doing this for only a reason,i cant never be there with you right now...

i just see uncomfortable...and i want to remove the un- infront...what i can do to gained that? i hope u understand why my actions were so protective and..monitoring..bt i never mean such way to be with you..

i was just lonely too...i just want to be there with you..

im sorry for everything,